When I’m busy I get more done
does that make any sense? I mean of course I am getting more done when I am busy, but what I mean is, the things I should do every day don’t get done when I am bored. I have figured out that when I am energized from excitement I want to keep going. Whereas when I am bored I don’t feel like doing those activities that don’t sound like much fun. So I avoid doing anything at all. I lose myself in my boredom.
I also tend to get slower as I near the end of a project. And I don’t tend to finish things. This is obviously a huge problem. I never finished college the first time even though I could have went one more term and had a degree. And this time I am going to school online and could be done by now if I would just do the work. Instead it sits here, book unopened, waiting. And I tell myself every day that I am going to get on it, but then I am too tired or distracted by absolutely nothing.
Is this depression? Perhaps. I am still a generally happy person, and when I do get out I have fun. I just feel so stuck.
